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Extroverted Introvert

If you have ever met me or spoken with me or read my blog, then you would probably think I have a type A personality, thus making me an extrovert. However, you’d be dead wrong.

I’m one of the most introverted people you could ever come in contact with. It literally pains me to put my feelings and words out there. The thought of having to speak out loud makes me want to curl into a ball in my room with the door shut…..and locked. Most days, the thought of leaving the house scares me out of my mind. I’m much more comfortable in my own home, in the quiet, with my family. I have three very outgoing boys though, and therefore I do have to actually leave the house at some point. Just know though, that when you ring my doorbell or call my phone, I’m literally imagining ways to get out of actual conversation or face to face contact. It isn’t something I’m proud of. I WISH I could be the type A personality that I sometimes embody.

But honestly? That’s completely fake. I do stand up for what I believe in, even though it is extremely difficult. I will fight for what’s right for my family. I will speak up for others. I will glorify God in doing these things. Just because I will do this, doesn’t mean it isn’t hard. It is extremely difficult most days to face the day, much less people; much less make decisions or defend a stance I have. I do it because I’m called to. Proverbs 31:8 “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute.”

Thankfully, God doesn’t call the qualified; He qualifies the called! If not, I would never leave my house. But I do. I get up, take the kids to park days and field trips, answer the door (sometimes….), go to rallies to end abortion and ensure the voiceless have a voice. But I want you to know, it takes a lot of work. Emotional, spiritual, physical work. At the end of those days {the ones where I have to be around people}, I am emotionally drained and mentally exhausted. And I’ll let you in on a little secret : I’m not the only one. A lot of people you meet with, talk to, listen to are all introverts. They just hide it well. At the end of the day, they have to go home and do some serious winding down, alone. Be careful who you judge, or even who you think you know. There are a lot of people with a lot of faces and even more facades. We all just want to make it through the day. Personally, I want to make sure whatever I do glorifies God, and if it doesn’t, then why am I doing it? He can be glorified in me taking the kids to the park just as much as He is glorified in corporate worship on Sundays. So I will continue to *work* at being a voice, speaking up, and putting myself out there. Colossians 3:17 “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.”

So if you ever think I am too outspoken or gregarious, trust me, I’m not. I’m the most extroverted introvert you’ve ever met.

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I am a child of God, first and foremost. Secondly I am a wife; very much ( and sometimes undeservingly) loved, by my husband Sam. And last, but most certainly not least, I am a mom to 3 beautiful boys: Mitchell, Andrew and Buddy. We homeschool, love family time, and enjoy helping others. I am also a doula. I love my work and love writing about it as well. I am very passionate about my beliefs, and my blogs tend to show that. Enjoy reading!

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